So obviously I just stopped blogging on this platform. I'll get back to it eventually. Or not. I'm taking a break from all social media. It seemed necessary for my mental health.
The last few years have been busy and … challenging:
- 2015 Happened.
- 2016 Let's call it The Lost Year. (Obviously words failed me.)
- 2017 about broke me. Literally. Mentally.
- 2018 was ridiculous, proving 2017 was just a warm up. (Good thing I was already broken so it couldn't hurt as much.#2018TrashCanFire I thought things were going okay, but maybe not?)
- 2019 was such a blur. I know there were highlights, but then stuff happened and carried into the next year...
- And then in March#2020 really took a turn. Who can even categorize 2020? Do we dare?
I kinda want a do-over of some of the last few years. But life doesn’t work that way.
So for now, I'm hunkering down. Regrouping. Trying to stay safe and sort some stuff out.
Stay safe everyone. Stay well.
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Monday, February 28, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 2004
Grandma was in the last few months of her life by this point, and Grumpa Max had been out West staying with her at home. It is most likely through his efforts that this is one of the only birthday cards I have with Grandma and all three of her kids' handwriting on it. It seems appropriate to bring the birthday month reminiscences to a close with these wishes.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Auntie Nettie's Attic Merchandise 2011 - February
I did occasionally look away from the tiny tiny series of numbers and flex another part of my brain, and remembered why the yarnarts like knitting and crochet are prescribed by therapists for their relaxing qualities. I can't wait until I drop hundreds (please, just 100s, not 1,000s) of letters in the mail and finish this big work project, so I can get back to things that don't stress me out so much.
Here's the February wrap-up, such as it is:
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 2002
[Ogden, Utah]
Bday Card Note:
This wont help much but Maby[sic] a cheap book. Don’t worry about the year. [writes someone who had seen 30, 40, 50, 60, and then 70 and 80 come and go.]
Lots of Love
Grandma
Friday, February 25, 2011
Feb. Funks: I get by with little help from my friends
HOWEVER, last minute rescues a.k.a. dinner and transportation by the camera shy Cynthia, and a large care package and a Fairway Cafe lunch from Jane yesterday,
seem to have given me the lift to push me through until I could get some "game time" in with the girls. (seen here on the last "retreat" in October 2010.)Just a few more days until February is finally over and I can truly flash the VICTORY sign.
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 2001
February 2001
[Ogden, Utah]
Birthday Card Note:
I know you are older than this, but I needed a card.
Lots of Love
Grandma
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 2000
[Ogden, Utah]
Bday Card Note:
My [illegible – probably narcisses] are going like mad & gave the lilys to Cora to put in her garden.
The others I’ll give to Cindy or Jerry.
I think it will be nice when J gets home. Not long now
Hope you have a good birthday
Grandma
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 2000
[The Trailer
Pikeville, NC]
Birthday Card Note:
[Granddaughter],
Thanks so much for coming with your Mom and all the things you did.
I can do more For myself Now. Do tire easely[sic].
Oh we had snow enough the road were a mess. No School or Church.
Yesterday was a spring like day.
Aunt Shirley and uncle Preston was with me most a week. Good Visit.
Am sorting through my cloth and sewing up a quilt so as to clean out and use and throw some away. Makes more Room for other things. The Birds loved the Feader[sic] ring.
Take Care and Do have a good Birthday.
I love you very much so did your grand Pa
God Bless you
Love
GrandMa
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. mid-1990s
The Farm?
Pikeville, NC
Birthday Card note:
Dear Granddaughter,
This will probably be late. Any way the wish is true.
Glad you enjoyed your Christmas visit with me. It was thoughtful.
I’m well and doing fine – quilted a quilt last week. Nothing fancy.
Did have time to cut out pattern for other quilts while snow and ice was here. Pretty but didn’t get out much. Fed birds. They slept under shelders[sic] trying to get out of Cold one died on a bench under shelder[sic] Dove.
Your mom sent pictures of snow up there. Knee deep or more. But nice.
We had a beautiful sunny Sunday for a change. Also had Stake Conference. I drove myself to church. Snow and ice all gone. Wind is up. May be cooler tomorrow. I have been reading this afternoon. Drag out your Book of Mormon and READ Alma Chapter 5. That’s what the theam[sic] of the Conference was. Big Crowd.
Oh am reading the new Readers Digest. Thanks a lot. You were very generous.
Expect will help the Ladies Group quilt some this week. Was to[sic] to get out last week. No school for a Couple days.
I had heat, lights and food so no problem there. Were long days. One day no mail Delivery. Don’t have road aquipment[sic] like you folks do to clear the roads.
Take Care
Love you
Grandma
Monday, February 21, 2011
Photo of the Day: Kiboshed Kayak
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Recipes from Grandmary -- Fudge Frosting
I was even more anxious to make this frosting than the cake. For the cake I only called Grandmary in Utah once. The frosting merited two phone calls. (Next cellphone I'm getting will have video conferencing abilities, to make these types of calls easier. Take a note Grandmary. Cellphone cameras/video-calling for recipe testing from New York/Utah! Also, a.v. guys -- how's that smell-o-vision coming along?)
As for this frosting experiment, I'm not too old or proud to admit that I burst into happy tears when I tasted the final results. Just as I remembered. All of my various childhood memories and associations bubbled up and over. Needless to say, I'm not waiting another 18 years to taste this. Who needs a cake? I'll eat it off the beaters like I used to as a kid.
Frosting
2 cups white sugar
¼ cup white corn syrup
½ cup milk
½ cup shortening
1 ½ square unsweetened chocolate (cut-up)
¼ teaspoon salt
Boil 1 min.
Whip until good to spread.
Combine all in pot.
Bring to a rolling boil, and boil for 1 minute. Stirring constantly.
Remove from heat.
Whip until gets thicker and starts to come away from side of pan – at least 5 minutes with a mixer, MUCH longer if by hand. (Whipping will cool the mixture – if it cools too much it’s hard to spread). Pour on cake and spread quickly.
Or, even better, eat with a spoonful when cool.
Half Batch:
1 cup white sugar
1/8 cup white corn syrup
¼ cup milk
¼ cup shortening
¾ squares unsweetened chocolate (cut up)
1/8 teaspoon salt
Same direction as above.
LEFTOVERS FOR ME! Yummmmmmmm
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 1998/9?
Birthday Card Note:
I’m going to try & get to St. George while your folks are there. I’ll ride down with Clint in the car carryer[sic] & stay at a motel so I don’t be in the way at Jed's they will have a housefull[sic] & I’m sure they will have places to go & people they want to see. Maby[sic] we will get to see where Jed works. Maby[sic] you will get to come some other time.
They said it was 70 in St. George yesterday – of course it was 40 here for a change & it is sunny.
Jerry is doing dolls again she has been doing things to hang.
Cora has been going to Salt Lake twice a week for shots for a asmah[sic] clinic out of Boston its for people who are alargic[sic] to cats they have 2 of them so she is having problems they told me to keep the cats.
Cindy is OK DJ is a tipical[sic] boy full of it. Jackie is having a hard time she has asmha[sic] to[sic] She has a hard time breathing so she doesn’t get to go to school to[sic] much.
Love
Grandma
Friday, February 18, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 1998
The Farm
Pikeville, NC
Birthday Card Note:
I remember you and your dad Coming to help me clean up some afte[sic] the storm FRAN. Thanks again.
We were dry then. Now we are soaked Rain & Rain.
Cloudy today. Hope the sun can come out.
I am fine and trying to quilt some for a lady.
Not put together good so not easy to quilt.
Do have fun on your trip and Visit West.
Take Care.
Love
Grandma
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 1997
Bday Card Note:
I hope you have a good birthday. I’m glad you are going to try for your Masters. I had a card from Jed & Kelli they said they were going to try & buy a house. It will be good to see JJ if he gets here. Why don’t you drive over with him? It’s going to be a long way along & who knows what the weather will be.
Also enclosed:
Photo from her front door across the street to Aunt Jerry’s
“This is our first snow this year we have had a lot more. The weather is good today."
Photo of Cindy, DJ and Jackie at a birthday party
Photo of Uncle Jack, Cindy, DJ and Jackie
Photo from August 1996: Dad/Max’s 50th b-day/Jed and Kelli’s rehearsal Dinner,
Photo is of Aunt Cora razzing older brother
“I don’t know if you got a picture of your Dad’s Birthday. I’m not sure some of your relatives were impressed but it was sort of fun.”
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Happy Birthday Amber!
This whole year has passed in quite a blur, hasn't it?
You have gotten so big, so fast.
It seems like just yesterday you were this little person.
Uncle Max,and Grandmary love you very much.As you continue to explore the world, remember to point out what fascinates you,dance to the beat of your own drummer, explore your own fashion sense,eat well-rounded meals,and occasionally curl up to take a well-earned rest.I'm so glad we got to go painting over Christmas break.
You are quite an artist, my darling girl.I'm so grateful to be part ofHappy Birthday,
xo Auntie Nettie
P.S. Your presents are in the mail. I promise!
[Three photos (2-4) courtesy of her parental units.]
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
YouTube Tuesday: Criminally Excellent Cello Duet
"Stjepan Hauser and Luka Sulic- two very talented musicians- have turned a pop classic into an epic and beautiful classical duet with a hard core twist. The harmonies between the cellos are passionate and lively; Hauser and Sulic have created a conversation with their instruments, doing more than justice to Michael Jackson's 'Smooth Criminal.'"
Monday, February 14, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 1993
Birthday Card note:
Dear [Granddaughter],
Not sure you’ll get this on your birthday. But so what?
I have a quilt in and as I worked on it I listended[sic] to tapes one was you in first grade and Jed and Mama were chatting away and singing primary songs. Oh it is a presure[sic] to have this.
Thanks for the nice letter & card a while Back.
I feal[sic] fine. So good to feal[sic] fine again.
Uncle Hyrum has found his Blood Sugar is high.
We went down to see U. Henry Sunday after church came back Monday evening. They are doing well. He can walk much better using walker.
We got a garden planted or part of it. Grand[sic] is cold yet.
Be extra careful so as not to slip on the ice.
Take care of your self Take No chances. Who knows who is lurking in the shadow to do you harm.
Oh I found this picture, If you like it you may keep it. Your mom was one year old. I think.
Don’t take any wooden Nickles from any one a old saying.
1 fore[sic] each year – so 21 it is
Happy birthday
Love
Grandma
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Recipes from Grandmary -- Auntie Nettie's B-day Cake
Well. This is the cake that is traditionally associated with my birthday. Three layers of chocolate cake smothered in the most delectable fudge frosting you ever did taste. The cake was only made for my birthday. Not the younger brothers' birthdays ... MINE. It is prominently featured in many a childhood birthday picture, staying timeless no matter the hairstyle, housing decor, or adolescent morphing.
It is the centerpiece of family lore, i.e remember the time Mom ruined the frosting by using salt instead of sugar? (Yes, it was that puckeringly bad!) Remember how the first year after the move saw a slightly deformed cake because of the altitude adjustments. It even made an appearance during my freshman year of college, much to the delight of my roommates -- garnering younger brother J a kiss by the mysterious and beautiful Belen of South America. Sadly, I think the last time Grandmary made it for me was my 21st birthday, and that was a very long time ago. [And! Hello! Now that I think about it, I only got a hunk of it because by the time she came down to visit, the other occupants of her house had eaten into the cake (Um, thanks DAD!)]
I've been saving this one to try. It has been a lifetime since I've had my birthday cake. Frankly, I was afraid to try it. Would it live up to the nostalgia? Could I replicate the taste? How would the recipe work in one 13x9 sheet cake versus 3 8" rounds? Would it be everything I remembered? Would it be gluttonous to eat the whole thing myself?
Despite this being my birthday cake, it actually still is a Grandma recipe. I got it from Grandmary, and then I found it in Aunt Ruby's box last summer (that's her card below, mine is above). So, that's three generations, at the very least, that have made this cake.
Walter Baker’s Prize Chocolate Cake
3 cups sifted flour
½ teaspoon baking soda
¾ teaspoon salt
¾ cup boiling water
2 squares unsweetened chocolate
¾ cup shortening
2 cups white sugar
3 eggs (well beaten)
1 cup sour milk*
1 teaspoon vanilla
Sift flour once, measure, add soda, salt and sift 3 times. Set aside.
Add boiling water to chocolate. Stir until well-melted. Set aside.
Cream shortening. Add sugar gradually, and cream together until light and fluffy.
Add eggs and beat well. Add cocoa mix and blend.
Add flour alternatively with milk in small amounts, beating after each addition until smooth.
Bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes in three 8” cake pans.
*Use 1 teaspoon vinegar to the milk to make sour milk.
I used a 13x9 pan, and ended up baking this closer to 50 minutes, until the center domed up. Sadly, after cooling, the dome collapsed. I let this sit for about four days, sealed in a lid, until I got around to frosting it. What the lid managed to do was keep in the moistness of the cake, and then the frosting helped. The frosting recipe -- actually my favorite part -- will be up next week.
I took it to work to share, without telling people the personal significance of the cake. They are so used to me baking by now, no one asks why I bring things anymore. It was gone in about 2 hours of me alerting various departments to come and share. I did manage to snag 2 pieces before it was gone. Next time, I'll be more greedy.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 1980s
February 1980s?
The Farm
Pikeville, NC
Birthday Card note:
I sit here thinking of the day you were born and waiting for a phone call to say were here safe and sound. Oh happy we were and our love has grown as you have grown.
Take Care
Lots of Love and best wishes
GrandMa
Sometime later in the 1980s ...
February 1980s
The Farm
Pikeville, NC
Birthday Card note:
Dear one,
It is Cold and damp here today, No Snow.
Am trying to Finish a quilt but feal[six] sleepy so think I will go to bed a while. Did get up early so what.
Have had a cold a while it is better. Sure can keep it that way.
Take Care and Gold Bless you in all your righteous desires.
Love
GrandMa
Friday, February 11, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 11, 1986
The timing was good. In a few years, the Iron Curtain would come down and the U.S.S.R. would once again be Russia. I still have lots of Soviet era rubles, some pictures of Red Square, and have had a passport since my mid-teens. Grandma may not have traveled abroad but she made sure that her grandchildren had the chance to explore. The three of us have had some international adventures: Brazil, Canada, Costa Rica, the U.S.S.R., Sweden, Denmark, Mexico, Honduras .. and bucket lists that are a mile long. (And J, before you chime in, I'm counting time spent in international airports even if we didn't leave the terminals!)
11 Feb. 1986
Temple Mission
Kensington, MD
Dear Granddaughter:
Hope you have a very lovely Birthday. Be nice to be with you. Guess that won’t be at least this time.
Every thing is white here. Snowed yesterday a while. Last night while I slept it snowed and was snowing when I got up and up to 11 AM. So it's pretty. The soft pretty kind. Haven’t been out but will go later and sweep it of[sic] the Car. Some one said we are supose[sic] to have more snow tonight. We’ll see.
Had the icey kind last week and cold weather the locks on the Car froze. Was some warmer when I had to go in to work. I did get door to Car open and No more problem.
I am fealing[sic] much better these days. A Cold sure can make on feal[sic] awful.
Well need to go home in early March to get N.C. Inspection sticker on Car.
Hope all are well and doing fine.
Be Happy and kind to your Brothers and Parents.
Love you lots,
Grandma
PS. Have a very nice trip and then write and tell me about it sometime.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 10, 1992
[And this may or may not have been my birthday or around my birthday. February is usually such a short and crappy month, I have adopted the WHOLE thing as my birthday. Thus all the notes this month.
But ... I must also say, that I am perverse about the whole birthday thing.
I want, er ... WOULD LIKE the presents. I want, er ... WOULD LIKE cards. I appreciate the calls. I want, er ... need the love and affection.
I just don't want a hoopla, a surprise party, any hint of a spectacle at which I must be present/the focus of attention/the hostess/sociable, etc. which extends to letting anyone but close friends/family know about the actual day, in order to preclude aforementioned celebrations and/or my colleagues making a fuss.
Got that?
Love/presents -- yes
Fuss/parties -- HELL TO THE NO!
And for goodness sakes, this means NOOOOOOOOO SINNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGINNNNNG!!
(or strippers! -- but that's another post.)]
This is probably one of the only cases where we have a letter from grandma that references a letter that I sent her (see Jan. 24, 2011 post with Jan. 24, 1992 recovered letter.)
10 Feb 1992
[The Farm
Pikeville, NC]
Dear GrandDaughter,
Happy 20th Birthday. And may you have many more. Hope this one is special. Hope you are well and Happy.
I am doing fairly well. Doctor said my eyes are weaker. Hope can do something to help them from going so fast. Oh I can see big letters the small ones are weak.
The red flower your mom gave me for Christmas is Blooming has four blooms on one stalk.
So simple to take Care of your Mom Could have done that but she said she’d only kill it. I move it to front window in morning and to back Kitchen window after dinner so will be in sun. And water it twice a week.
Uncle Hyrum is doing fine. Uncle Henry (who you probily[sic] never seen) is doing well after a hip replacement. The operation was last Tuesday. Yes I was down there with him and his family so was Uncle Hyrum.
I have been quilting and my fingers are sore. I quilted one for myself and helped a friend do one.
To day I’m slow getting started.
Had a good Stake Conference yesterday.
Take Care of yourself.
Thanks lots for the Birthday Card.
Those grades were good. Keep it up. Don’t Over Load Yourself.
Love you
Grandma
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 9, 1983, '91 & '94
1983: The Middle School years. Not much in the way of excitement. I was about to graduate from Primary in a year or so, so the Church magazine that Grandma got me to share was either the Friend or the New Era.
9 Feb 1983
[Temple Mission
Kensington, MD]
Dear [Granddaughter],
We had snow Sunday but not enough that we couldn’t get to Church. It’s cold outside and snow here still.
I sewed up a quilt top yesterday for the Relief Society. Had big blocks and the work went fast. Now to get it quilted. Think I’ll have some help for that.
Hope you are working very carefully and your music is coming along good. Practice and practice is important.
The Church magazine you should have received is to be shared. Do hope you enjoy it as much as you mom did “Jack and Jill” which she got as a girl – about like you.
Do hope you have a very very nice birthday.
Enjoy life – find pleasure in your work (church, home or school). Will make you a happer[sic] cheerful girl.
I enjoy my work here very very much. Sometime the job is new and I wonder if I can learn it. Well guess what? I do learn it and like it too.
Be good, loving, and God bless you.
Love
Grandma
1991: The College Years
I suspect that the chiding you read here is because I was working on the switchboard on Sunday mornings as part of my work-study financial aid package and NOT going to Church.
Historical context kids, before EVERYONE had mobile telecommunication devices, calls came into one main number via land-line. In a dormitory setting, that meant that the switchboard operator would buzz the appropriate dorm room to send the inhabitants scurrying down to the hall wall-phone to call the desk and the incoming call would be transferred upstairs to the person. You would take your call out in the middle of the dorm hallway. Not so much privacy, but somehow generations of people made it work. In the really "olden times," the operator could actually ease drop on those conversations ... but not when I was the operator. Also, I may or may not have abused my "buzzing" privileges to roost people out of bed after a night of their partying. If I liked you, or you bribed me, I may or may not have had fun with the buzzer.
9 Feb 1991
[The Farm
Pikeville, NC]
Dear Granddaughter,
I was slow so this want[sic] go off today. May even be late reaching you. But I did remember and get it ready. Haven’t decided to run out to Kenly and put it in post office. I feal[sic] sort of slugush[sic]. Just not the up and go should have. Did repair of couple of jeans[sic] – skirt and coveralls for Earl A--. He brought them over one day or so ago. Oh what a pretty warm day outside. But I stayed in.
We’ll go out about Five O’clock as we have a session of our Stake Conference[sic]. This evening. And I do plan to go.
… how about trying this plan. Go to Church and see how that works out. Hope you’d feal[sic] better Spiritually. Yes does make a difference no one to sort of push you go get up and go. I’d feal[sic] better to know you are in Church services on Sunday. Money don’t mean every thing.
Follow the example you have been taught all your life.
See if the Lord want[sic] bless you in many ways.
Should you need some extra for gas – Let me know.
Well I should sweep the house and soon get ready for church.
Love you lots.
May you have a good birthday. God bless you and help you in all your decisions[sic] I pray.
Grandma
1994: The transition off-campus/transition college/work semester
The winters of 1994-95 and 1995-96 were the worst on record ... up until this year.
The winter of 1994 my poor car was parked on one-way streets and completely and totally buried, byt the snow plows driving by on the street, and then the snow blowers working on the sidewalks. I didn't find it for a week. Luckily everything else was impacted with due to the snow, so I didn't miss too much work or school. I perfected my technique for un-digging the car that winter, as well as how to "rock" the car in and out of spots without spinning my wheels too much. I watch and listen to people now, and just shake my head. I don't volunteer to help them, however. No thank you. The one blessing from the car accident/lawsuit/no-car situation is that I don't have to deal with my vehicle this winter, the unshoveling, the alternate side street parking, and the altercations that are arising from people fighting over cleared spots.
My roommates were nice -- but that dog, wasn't a dog so much as a pair of ferrets. NASTY creatures. I don't care what people say.
Grandma tried to keep up with technology - what with picture taking classes and later trying the computer, but it wasn't really her thing. As previously mentioned, she did get around to making her funeral arrangements, so those church preparation/enrichment classes did come in handy.
9 Feb 1994
[The Farm
Pikeville, NC]
Dear [Granddaughter],
So good to hear from you. Gosh how nice to know you are settled in a apartment and studies.
Hope you don’t have to[sic] much trouble getting to campus. Weather report don’t sound good up your way.
Warm for time of year here this morning put promised temperature would drop to night and tomorrow. With wind and rain. Will see.
Apartment sounds nice. Tell me some about your roommates Nice I hope and all will be happy. I could get along fine with out the Dog.
I have been helping some ladies quilt and I’m cleaning out some boxes. Make quilt tops. I enjoy staying on the move doing something.
Your studies sound good. Pleased you are finding some time to relax.
Learned Aunt Dorothy is moving into a condo. No yard work. Same town. She is excited.
Went to RS last night. Had a picturing[sic] taking class (how to). I went in and got class on Preprations[sic] or preparing your or mine Funeral. Nothing I didn’t know. Not sure if I’ll arrange mine. Will see.
Carol is in College with her 1st Daughter Emily. All’s well or seems to be.
Take Care and God bless you.
Love
Grandma
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 8, 1985
Don't put the clues together about the actual day and my actual age if you can possibly help it. Age is just a number. And a state of mind.
February 8, 1985
Temple Mission
Kensington, MD
Birthday Card note:
My[sic] you have a very nice birthday. And may you continue to grow to be a good helper of our Heavenly Father.
Love your family
Study hard and learn many things you will use as you grow older.
My[sic] God bless and guide you with his love.
Take care of your self.
Love
Grandma
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Monday, February 7, 2011
Photos of the Day: "Give Me Your..."
presented with this paraphrase*:
"Give me your tired, your cold,
Your frozen masses yearning to be warm,
The wretched survivors of snows ten-fold
Send these, the frostbitten ones, much care-worn.
The Gardens have spring inside, and many may we hold."
I'm done winter. I need spring.
Think I need to head to the Gardens STAT!
*With apologies to Emma Lazarus, and her sonnet:
New Colossus
Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she
With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 6, 1992
During a certain point in college I had a fascination with calligraphy pens, and used the various inks to illustrate letters, draw on envelopes, and to procrastinate when I should have been working or studying. That's what Grandma is referring to here.
Even though Grandma "just hate[d] to try & write so you have to understand," it's wonderful to look back through the binders I have of her letters and appreciate how many I actually do have, and have saved. More than the birthday check that probably came with this correspondence, these are the actual presents that withstand the test of time.
Feb 6 1992
Ogden, Utah
Dear [Granddaughter],
I’m real proud of you doing so good in school. Keep it up but don’t burn your self out. You have a while yet to go. Try to have a little fun out of it to[sic]. I’m sure it comes to you quiet[sic] easy because you read so much. Are you taking a writing class? The envalope[sic] looks real neat.
I haven’t been working but 1 day a week for the last 3 weeks. But I guess that is OK every little bit helps.
Cora has had the flu but she went to work today. We have had so much junk in the air you could get any thing. Cora says its from dirty money maybe so.
Everyone else is OK just the everyday things. Kids fall down & mothers take care of them. Aren’t you glad you don’t have to worry about that sort of thing. I sure am.
… you know I just hate to try & write so you have to understand I don’t make much since[sic] & I don’t think I’ll try much more.
I’m going to send this with your Card. Dad said to send it to their address so I will. I hope you have a good birthday. The older you kids get the older I do to[sic] but I guess that’s the way things are & it won’t change.
Lots of Love
Grandma
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Recipes from Grandmary/Roa -- Red Velvet (Cup)Cake
This is also a two-pronged Grandma recipe: Grandma Roa loved Red Velvet Cake. I remember that Grandmary/Mom always seemed to make one for Roa's birthday, back when we still lived in Utah.
Here's the recipe from Grandmary's box:
1/2 cup shortening
1 1/2 cup sugar
2 eggs (room temperature)
1 tblspn cocoa
2 oz. red food coloring
1 tspn salt
1 tspn vanilla
1 cup buttermilk
2 1/2 shifted flour
1 tsp vinegar
Cream shortening, sugar, eggs. Made this paste of cocoa and food coloring. Add to cream mixture. Mix salt and vanilla in buttermilk. Add flour to cream mixture. Mix soda in vinegar. Alternate with flour. Fold in soda and vinegar to mixture.
38 inch cake pans. [three 8 inch pans]
30 minutes at 350 degrees.
After working my way through recipes for a year, I could tell just by looking at this that there are some things seriously mixed up in the directions. Plus, I think it should read three 8 inch pans, because it was always a layer cake. We lived at a much higher elevation in Utah -- and this recipe does not note that on the card.
So, I consulted some other cookbooks and internet sites to double check things. I also don't own circular cake pans, so from the outset these were destined to be cupcakes.
The closest recipe to the one above is the Joy of Baking Red Velvet Cake (found here).
Here's my/their edits to the above:
1/2 cup unsalted butter
1 1/2 cup white sugar
2 eggs (room temperature)
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 teaspoon salt
1 tablespoon cocoa
2 1/2 shifted flour
2 tablespoons red food coloring
1 cup buttermilk
1 teaspoon vinegar
1 teaspoon baking soda
In separate bowl, shift together salt, flour, and cocoa until well mixed. Set aside.
Cream butter until soft. Add in sugar, beat until well mixed. Add in eggs, beat well, and then add vanilla.
Mix buttermilk and food coloring.
Alternately add milk/food coloring and flour to sugar mixture, until well combined.
In separate bowl, add soda and vinegar and allow to fizz. Then beat into cake batter.
350 degrees for about 20-23 minutes.
About 2 dozen cupcakes.
After well cooled, frost with white buttercream or cream cheese frosting.
Another note: I used some of the ancient food coloring that I got from Grandmary's move - and I mean ancient. Glass jars, vintage labels, companies that don't exist anymore, the food coloring in the jars had evaporated into bricks at the bottle of the glass, kind of ancient. I added water to the jars and let them sit for a bit. Aside from getting food coloring everywhere, this method of salvaging the dye didn't seem to harm the batter (or me) any.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 4, 1984
4 Feb 1984
[The Farm
Pikeville, NC]
Dear [Auntie Nettie],
Here goes your long awaited letter. I did appreciate the one you sent me. Thanks so much-
Grandma hasn’t been her self in a few months. Just felt bad (cold) then the accident – So please forgive me for not writting[sic].
I am here at home all alone now. All are gone to town or to Carl’s house. Don’t think they will do much there as it is raining.
My ribs are too sore for me to do much so don’t go down there – only to look.
Uncle Hyrum lets me keep his car but haven’t used it must. Just plain haven’t felt like it.
Hope you are fealing[sic] good. Cheerfull[sic] and Happy. Smile and the world smiles with you.
Grandma loves you
Thanks for the gifts you made and sent me
Went by and looked at my car yesterday. Yes it is in the shop. Took broken pieces off and wating for new parts to come. Looks bad but hope it will soon be OK again.
Tell boys I love them too.
By[sic] for now
Grandma [Ollie]
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Letters from Roa S - Feb. 2, 1993
Feb 2 1993
[Ogden, Utah]
Dear [Granddaughter],
The rison[sic] I’m doing this so early is I’m going on a little trip next week & wont be back until the 12th so I have to send this before I go. I’m going on a bus trip with my Sister in Law & senior citizens to Death Valley & back down through Las Vages[sic] back home in 5 days. I didn’t think I should go I had a little pressure so I’m going. They had a storm down that way last week end In fact they are still digging out. We only had a little this time we still have it pilled[sic] up. We have had more snow this year than we have for a long time & its cold on top of it.
Jerry is doing pretty good she is still having Kemo[sic] once a week & will until May. Then she has to have 5 weeks of Radition[sic] every day. She is losing some of her hair but she says she can handle that.
Cora got over her galblader[sic] operation pretty good She had to have a tooth pulled last week & she is going for a mammogram[sic] Friday Jerry has been after her every since she had to have her operation. I sure hope she doesn’t have anything else.
Clint has gone back to school trying to get his G.E.D. Ray never did anything about school. Cindy has to take the GED Test. She doesn’t seem to be able to settle down. She has moved so I don’t see the kids very much I miss them but I’m sure I’ll be OK after awhile & they will be to[sic]. I talked to your mom & she said you are doing good & like you job but you wouldn’t be home for your birthday so I’ll send it to school.
Have a good birthday
Love
Grandma
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Letters from Ollie J - Feb. 1, 1991
On top of that, a winter storm passed over Westchester, not with winter snows, but with freaky blue lightening and loud, scarey thunderstorms. (And I love thunderstorms, but these were creepy). Watching bombs fly on the tvs, illuminated via the eerie green light of nightscopes, along with a blue lightening crashing outside, will make anyone a little disconcerted. As college freshmen we were also young enough to start worrying about a draft ... and/or the end of the world.
20 years later. More unrest in the Middle East. How much, and yet how little, things have changed.
1 Feb 1991
The Farm
Pikeville, NC
Dear [Granddaughter],
Thanks so much for Birthday Card and a Note leting[sic] me know what you think and are doing.
You are right things have a eary[sic] fealing[sic]. War isn’t Pretty anytime. Then there is so much talk and show on TV. Keeps every one uneasy and sad.
I had intended to write earler[sic]. Had a cold and all wanted to do was sleep. Its cold here today.
Hope you can get your working hours changed. We all should be at church on Sunday. The Spirit of Gods love and our knowledge of Gospel will help take some of Gloom away.
Glad you got a good roommate Found other friends too.
Be careful driving around. Choose company carefully. Where you go is important too. Could cause trouble. No disgrace to say No - when you are prompted to do so. You will never really loose frinds[sic] by being honest.
So glad you are loving Collage[sic] and hope you can make good use of it. Makes a big difference being away from Home. Yes I know Parents can seem uncaring at time but really they are thinking of your good.
Honey I am glad I can help you fiance[sic] and the rest is up to with the Lords Help you can make it. Try to look on the bright side of Life.
This is something I want you to remember your grandpa Loved you. So I am sure he will be prompting you if he Can. This may sound weared[sic]. But could be comforting too. So Listen to good Promptings. And don’t Forget to pray especially when you are in doubt.
We all need to Thank our Blessing.
I have a new G-nephew He’s a cutie.
I have a Baby Shower gift to Finish. Put a cute hem in a receiving Blanket – a sister at church.
Write me your thoughts often that might help to decide what way to take.
I Love you and wish you will[sic] in all you choices in life.
Be Careful in your driving No law says you got to speed.
Share a Happiness
And it is doubled
Share a sorrow
And it Lessons[sic].
Love and God Bless you
GrandMa