So obviously I just stopped blogging on this platform. I'll get back to it eventually. Or not. I'm taking a break from all social media. It seemed necessary for my mental health.
The last few years have been busy and … challenging:
- 2015 Happened.
- 2016 Let's call it The Lost Year. (Obviously words failed me.)
- 2017 about broke me. Literally. Mentally.
- 2018 was ridiculous, proving 2017 was just a warm up. (Good thing I was already broken so it couldn't hurt as much.#2018TrashCanFire I thought things were going okay, but maybe not?)
- 2019 was such a blur. I know there were highlights, but then stuff happened and carried into the next year...
- And then in March#2020 really took a turn. Who can even categorize 2020? Do we dare?
I kinda want a do-over of some of the last few years. But life doesn’t work that way.
So for now, I'm hunkering down. Regrouping. Trying to stay safe and sort some stuff out.
Stay safe everyone. Stay well.
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Monday, September 14, 2015
Photo of the Day
A couple tens of thou would be good.
And a hug.
And a chocolate bar.
Actually -- just a hug.
Friday, September 11, 2015
September 11, 2001
Sometimes, somehow, someone finds them.
Years later, they remembered where they had been. At their desks or in their beds, indoors or out. Driving, walking, working, alert, or half asleep. Each recalled momentary confusion. An airplane hit the World Trade Center. Pilot error? Technical glitch? And then the shock. A second plane. No accident. No mistake. The flames were real, as everyone could see on television. The Twin Towers burning, again and again. Bodies falling, again and again. The same towers, and the same bodies, and the Pentagon in flames. The scenes played constantly, at one heartbreaking and titillating, their repetition necessary, but also cheapening. Who, after all, could believe such a catastrophe after just one viewing? And who, after viewing once, could look away?[Chapter 27]… Ash fell. A fine gray powder covered everything. Ash coated burned-out cars and traffic lights. Ash infiltrated apartments, graying books and dishes, smothering house plants, clouding windowsills. Ash smogged streets and soiled papers, loose and lost, invoices and receipts, canceled checks, business cards, appointment books, memoranda unremembered. Black dust, black ink, black banner headlines in The New York Times. Black articles about firefighters, rescue workers, schoolchildren, orphans. Black border ads from ExxonMobil, Allstate, Prudential, Home Depot, OppenheimerFunds, Fleet, Lufthnasa—to our friends in America, AOL Time Warner, Merrill Lynch. Our hearts go out to everyone who’s been touched by the tragic events … our through and prayers … our gratitude for the tireless efforts of the emergency and rescue workers. Condolences from Israel and Egypt, the city of Berlin, the Iranian-American community—profoundly saddened, the Red Cross, the Ministries of New York—we’re here to pray for you.Museums opened free of charge. Oases of deep color: Rothkos, Rembrandts, Egyptian tombs, Roman glass, iridescent bottles outlasting their perfume. Amulets, silk gowns, and Grecian urns. Those young girls with parted lips, those haystacks, those stone angels taking flight, those paintings of fruit and full-blown flowers.Classical-music stations broadcast elegies, and listeners stopped what they were doing to hear Faure’s Requiem or Barber’s Adagio for Strings. To breathe again.Churches opened doors for candle-lighting, singing, sermons, vigils. In the name of the National Cathedral, President Bush said, “We are here in the middle hour of our grief…” and he told the American people to keep on living, to travel, to attend the theater, to go out and buy. Alas, buying did not appeal. Only American flags sold out. Great flags hung from walls and firehouses. Smaller versions adorned shop windows and front doors. Drivers clipped miniature flags to car antennae where they fluttered in the breeze.A flag was tangible. Its stars and stripes were real, unlike the dot-com bombs of yesterday. Who remembered those? The upstarts, overhyped and overfunded. When the Nasdaq reopened on September 17, even Cisco hovered at twelve dollars a share. Vaporizing into usefulness, online shopping, e-mail, and instant news, the Internet lost its mystique, and suddenly it was everywhere and nowhere, like the air. A flag had value …[Chapter 28]… By spring, fewer troopers with dogs and submachine guns stood guard at the airports. Obituaries and memorial services had tapered off, and flags were smaller where they still flew. Magazines showcased 9/11 widows and their families, especially the babies their husbands would never know, but those same publications featured recipes for easy, breezy outdoor fun, tips for praising children the right way, and full-page photographs of fruit cobblers, no-bake desserts, no-sew craft projects, closet makeovers, and illustrations of simple exercises for those mornings when there was no time to run. Death never died, but the idea of death receded, as it must.[Chapter 32]From The Cookbook Collector by Allegra Goodman
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Photos of the Day: Out on a Limb
I can't remember WHERE we were, but I had to play tourist when I came to this dwelling. First I spotted this stoop staircase artfully entangled in the roots of a climbing vine:
~ photos by iTouch.
Taken June 22, 2015
Tuesday, September 8, 2015
Resume a Routine: Survival Tips from the Festival
I wonder what survival tips we'll have to adapt for the fall and the Fall Festival.
For the summer, we had a variety of coping mechanisms, survival tips if you will. You do what you can.
There was the Departmental hooky day at the lake last month.
Of course with a buffet, because our department doesn't "do a thing" without some kind of buffet.
We may have been wondering if there was some way senior management could delay coming back from their vacations. We might have needed them to be on vacation for at least another month, so we could have caught up from the last 8 MONTHS. (Not 8 weeks. 8 MONTHS!) {Why? MEETINGS!}
There was the post-concert, staff Karaoke Kontest, and Kameo by an Ice Cream truck on Closing Night of the Festival.
There may have been some lapsing into some outrageously outre accents. Da, comrades?
Someone MAY have been making up lyrics celebrating the end of the Festival. With apologies to the writers of One Day More from Les Miserables:
One day more! Another day, another destiny. This never-ending road to [revelry]; These men who seem [pay my dime] Will surely come a second time.
Tomorrow we'll discover What [the HR ladies have] in store! [party] One more dawn [Can I make it?] One more day [I will make it!] One day more!
Week 6's Opera evening saw some art therapy going on during the intermissions.
There may have been an impromptu dance solo during a rain burst, leading to the question/answer:
Q: Should I apologize to all the audience members who saw me dancing barefoot with my umbrella during the pre-concert microburst?#sorrynotsorry
A: Nope. Perfectly happy to enioy my#singingintherain solo. Life is too short, and I work too hard, not to dance like no one is watching.
Other people on Twitter agree.
Daunse lyke nobodye ys wacchinge except the wylde and airy deities of summer.
— Chaucer Doth Tweet (@LeVostreGC) July 17, 2015
We ate a lot of leftovers from the previous night's party platters. If the cookies have oatmeal and raisins in them, it's a healthy option for breakfast, right?
We got MORE punchy. Even "Secret Summer Santa" has having a hard time.
There might have been low-tech hot stone massages and fake tans (aka our feet hurt so much the radiant heat on the train platform felt good on dirty swollen feet.)
People came in on an "early" train just so they could sit on a bench in front of an indie bookstore in the sun, to enjoy 30 minutes of a book, when it wasn't too hot, before the car pool arrived.
People left at 5pm a day or two--and refused to feel (too) guilty about it.
There may have been meditation moments during musical interludes. NOT sleeping. Nope. We weren't sleeping. We were mediating. (Rigggggghhhhht.)
We may have gambled on not getting Lyme Disease, malaria, or other foot/mouth diseases, by walking around barefoot in the grass.
One rainy night on a late night commute, we got to enjoy the musical stylings of a quietly playing, considerately mellow, talented guitarist on a train platform.
We may have started paraphrasing the Bard as we longed for sleep.
"...to sleep, To sleep, perchance to Dream; aye, there's the rub, For in that sleep...what dreams may come," ~ HamletStill-lifes may have been artfully arranged.
We were burning the candles at both ends. When we weren't actually burning candles.
There actually MAY have been naps. A LOT of NAPS. And the 12hour sleeps of the NyQuil-assisted.
We may have gotten a little too excited when other departments showed up with the rest of the summer swag.
There were random ice cream socials with a cases of ice cream shipped in from Graeters Ice Cream.
Every meeting seemed to come with some kind of decor, treat, and/or buffet of goodies.
Maybe our eating habits were REALLY random.
Maybe there were occasions of breakfasts of PB Cups. Logic: PB is Protein, Protein is necessary. Sugar is Energy ERGO PB Cups.
OR
Days that started with PB Cups and ended with Tastykakes. Because we are adults. And we didn't have time for that whole "balanced diet" thing.
OR
Days that started with 3 Twix for breakfast, then a chaser of knockoff Fruit Loops w/a 1.25 liter of Diet Coke, and 3 Advil. Because, yeah -- sometimes ...
Perhaps meetings involved random exercise breaks including planking and jumping jacks.
Mayhap there was a H20 drinking game involved during marathon Gala prep sessions. Mayhap I should leave the details of this drinking game out there on Twitter for everyone to enjoy and not document it here.
Could it be that the backstage crew had the best coping mechanism of all?
Could it be that this phrase really best describes multi-week Festivals?
"It's not a sprint, it's a marathon" does NOT apply to multiweek Festivals. It's more a decathlon, that starts with a Gala/marathon.
A FEW people tried to start our summer out right. Not one, but THREE people had goodies ready to go at our Festival kick-off meeting.
THREE!
That should have been a clue.
As for ME, my coping mechanisms are front and center on my desk - as long as I remember to look at them:
And the realization that THIS email exchange was more honest than anyone can know.
Query: "What do you do to keep yourself sane."A day without meetings ... is like a
My instant reply: "I'm not sane. You think I'm sane?"
(We kid, because there is truth in comedy.)
Maybe one day I'll spot my unicorn again.
~photos by iTouch
Monday, September 7, 2015
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Back to School 2015: Family Edition
Sadly, on September 4th, the bane of parental planning struck. School germs. (sad trombones)
Quoth Christina: Well that didn't take long! School germs are the worst. After 3 days at school Nathan is home today sick.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Dining Al Desco: Part 2
SO MANY THINGS ABOUT THAT MAKE ME LAUGH.
HA! I dine, when I do dine, al desco. I even took occasional photos to document this. Part 1 is here.
Don't judge my eating habits. At least I had SOME lunch. Between meetings. Between projects. Between IMs, emails, phone calls. (Sigh. Can I go back on vacation?)
Also: Those of you who know me, know I have a Diet Coke addiction. There are many pictures of Diet Pepsi shown here. They were FREEEE. FREEEEEE trumps everything - ever.
Dino Bits are cheap Fruity Pebbles with DP |
Emergency supplies for later. You DO spy PB and J fixin's |
Fancy mustard, VERY fancy cheese, cashews and DP |
Eye Candy (yum), fudge gelato, Advil and DP |
GINORMOUS Diet Coke and chocolate? garlic knot? (OI - I think that's HOME actually on a work-from-home day). |
Someone's leftover Greek or Indian something or other |
Oh HELLO, random Kale Salad |
Pens in the homemade egg/potato salad. This is why we can't have nice things. |
I picked the cucumbers yesterday morning in the office garden. Does that count for anything? |