So obviously I just stopped blogging on this platform. I'll get back to it eventually. Or not. I'm taking a break from all social media. It seemed necessary for my mental health.
The last few years have been busy and … challenging:
- 2015 Happened.
- 2016 Let's call it The Lost Year. (Obviously words failed me.)
- 2017 about broke me. Literally. Mentally.
- 2018 was ridiculous, proving 2017 was just a warm up. (Good thing I was already broken so it couldn't hurt as much.#2018TrashCanFire I thought things were going okay, but maybe not?)
- 2019 was such a blur. I know there were highlights, but then stuff happened and carried into the next year...
- And then in March#2020 really took a turn. Who can even categorize 2020? Do we dare?
I kinda want a do-over of some of the last few years. But life doesn’t work that way.
So for now, I'm hunkering down. Regrouping. Trying to stay safe and sort some stuff out.
Stay safe everyone. Stay well.
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Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Quote of the Day: Draw your lines in the sand
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Poem of the Day: Beim Schlafengehen
From Richard Strauss' song series Vier letzte Lieder, text by Hermann Hesse
Translated by Heather Engebretson, soprano
Context for the worried parental unit: I attended a Liederabend, a vocal arts recital by one of my work-study students, a young and upcoming soprano. This is the English translation of a Strauss song featured on the recital (not the soprano mentioned above). It caught my attention because sometimes I have a problem going to sleep - turning my brain off from its busy-ness, and shutting down my other senses. My hands sometimes twitch like I'm still typing, and I need to enter a meditation trance to calm them and my mental activity. The words seemed to echo this state and I wanted to remember how relevant it was to me not long after I heard the song.
(Good grief Mom. It's not a call out for the shrink)
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Photo of the Day: Photographic Personal Revelation
I'm having a series of revelatory moments, which I'm now realizing started last week, of all things, on my morning commute. After a horrendous night with no sleep, due to construction and jack-hammering, and other urban disturbances, I decided to take a later train. Unfortunately, it was one of those commutes where I had to stand in the vestibule the whole way, due to crowding, which is murder on my feet and back, and I got overheated and nauseated. But that's not what was unusual. That morning, I did something seemingly uncharacteristic.
I had the urge to take a photo.
Last night, while flipping through folder of totally unrelated photos,
I had another important little personal revelation.
I realized that sometimes the answers you don't know you need,
come as mere whispers of thought ...
and trigger actions you can't explain.
Look up.
Look up now.
Get your camera out.
Get any camera out.
Look out the windows.
Now.
Really.
Yes.
Now.
Take pictures.
Just here.
Doesn't matter of what.
Doesn't matter if they come out.
Just do it.
That's it.
That's all.
Good girl.
It wasn't until last night that I got the message.
This picture.
Study it.
So you see it almost everyday;
What does it say to you ... today?
Yes.
Beauty can be all around.
In the things you see every day.
Through the grime,
through the routine,
through the drudgery...
LOOK.
Look up.
Fair skies are just on the horizon.
Perhaps the song that I've now triggered in your heart needs to be there for a reason.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Write this down.
You'll need to remember.*
I will dry them all
I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
When you're down and out
When you're on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you
I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Sail on Silver Girl,
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way
See how they shine
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
~P. Simon, 1969
*Post-script: Today I learned this message wasn't just for me.
Turns out, I may be just the messenger for a Friend.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Lunchtime Lyrics
One of the perks of working in the Concrete Jungle is the opportunity to attend many free, lunchtime concerts. Now, I don't often go out at lunchtime, as I usually eat my desk, blog, watch streaming video, and/or do work. Last week, however, I actually went to a concert called "Music for Guitar and Harps."